WHAT I’M WEARING: LOOK X GLAMOROUS BLACK CROCHET CUT OUT DRESS, LA MODA CROCHET CHOKER, MARAIS USA BLACK SUEDE MULES & VINTAGE PYTHON CHANEL BAG
I woke up tired and reaching for a sweater as the coffee machine steamed into a latte. It’s a strange sensation to savor a cloudy day, and to feel even a tad chilly is a novelty I welcomed this morning. Sure, it soon vanished as I began sweating in the way we all do in Spain during August, but it was lovely while it lasted. I’ve been a little mopey recently, I’ve already confessed the restlessness that seems to stir me nowhere but bored. The gym, a usually empowering ritual is humbling these days, my weights feel heavier and so do my feet as they pound the treadmill. I’ve been arguing with my boyfriend, four months is no longer the beginning when it comes to dating, and so we’ve been facing the problems that come when the initial thrill falls away. I still love him the same and we will be fine, I think we will be great once we find the rhythm that we need for our love to grow but the fights are frustrating and they leave me drowsy. I can barely stay awake for 20 minutes of a movie but I’ve been reading viciously, highlighting quotes that make me feel less alone, more at ease with all the weird whims that circle above or below my brain. I don’t know. I feel like my eyes aren’t all the way open and I’m missing something or many things. I wake up to not awake.
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